You’ve been injured a lot in the past. How did you go through this new injury break which must have reminded you of other ones?
- Actually, quite well. I was able to take some time off from tennis and it wasn’t a bad thing. It gave me back the desire to play.
Had you lost the desire? Does too much tennis kill tennis?
- Exactly. It was getting too much and I was growing tired of it. Now I’m ’starving’ again and I can’t wait to be back on the court. All the buzz around me off the court wore me out, of course, but tennis itself also was tiring me out at a time.
One thing you said in Miami sounded like a warning sign: ‘If that’s what a tennis career means and it’s going to last ten more years like that, wow!’
- I was starting to realize that all this was wearing me out. You have to understand what I was going through since the final in Melbourne too, it was inhuman.
Was it that bad?
- I had no time for myself anymore. Nothing. During the tournaments, the ATP was trying to make the most out of the 4-5 hours we owe to them every week. I was giving interviews, afterwards I went practicing, then the recuperation phase, then again signing sessions, then I had to visit the sponsors… It was a rotten life!
More than three months have passed since the AO final. We can now judge better what happened to you with the benefit of hindsight. What have you learned from it?
- That it’s a strong feeling to get all this love. On the street, in Congo, everywhere. But it’s hell at the same time. It’s extremely destabilizing when it happens to one over night.
Were you afraid to get out of your game?
- If things had gone on that way, I would have gotten lost for sure. I didn’t know anymore if I was playing well or not, if I was training well or not. So I needed to stop. That’s what I did.
Do you think the injury occured to say ‘Stop!’ somehow?
- Absolutely. I knew I was exhausted when I arrived in Miami. I told Eric: ‘Listen, I don’t feel like playing anymore.’ It had already happened to me in the past, but never so badly. And what happened? I played shitty matches because the positive energy I need for my game wasn’t there anymore. I was totally negative, I was moaning, I was tight. I shouldn’t have played there, but that’s not easy when everybody wants you to play. So I’ve learned to say ‘No’. Even if people don’t understand, even if people are disappointed. The most important thing for me is myself!
Are you feeling yourself again now?
- Yes, and it feels so good. Just the fact to have some peace and quiet at home. It might sound silly, but I was missing it so much… To be able to say: ‘What am I going to do tonight? Oh, nothing, I’ll just stay at home and watch TV.’ I went back to Le Mans, I even went fishing. I didn’t catch anything, but I was there. And the 3 cows around don’t ask for autographs at least.
Do you feel like you have changed ?
Yes but not like if am big-headed now. It’s just that I was eager to protect myself and I shut down/ cut off from the people. I was getting aloof and I didn’t like that.
The price of fame is also to see the media getting into your private life. Recently, a newspaper talked about a snakewood with a Belgian model..
They can try to get in, they won’t find anything. This Belgian journalist acted like a fool with this story. This girl, I have never seen her in my life. That was phony.
There also have been a polemic with Les Petits As…
This story really disappointed me. They hit things close to my heart: the children, fulfilling promises.. I gave up the legal proceedings but what is a sure thing, I will never go there as long as this man will work there.
Lets talk about the knee injury. When you were told about an operation, it might have sent shivers down your spine.
Oh yes! I am going to play Rome but the possibility of an operation still exists. I will have to see how my knee reacts after my first match, after my second… It’s like for my back: if one day, it doesn’t work anymore, I know I can be operated.
Some people think this injury didn’t appear at the worst period; they are convinced you won’t succeed on clay cos it doesn’t suit your game.
Yes, yes. I ‘ve heard it. I don’t know how people can think this as I haven’t played on clay for a while. But well, I take it like a challenge and I think I can surprise more than one people. Even for myself, I do want to know how I will handle it, if I am going to go to the net… What people say doesn’t piss me off, it doesn’t make me laugh either. It motivates me. I’ve always worked like this. Often, my motivation doesn’t come from myself but from my eagerness to contradict people. Even with a bit of bad faith, if it’s needed. We are all a bit like this, aren’t we?
But do you think you can be good on clay?
There are no reasons for me not to. I am as tough as many good players, I have more power than the average I can hit the ball up the shoulder and on clay, I will have more time to go to the net.
What do you think about the polemic around Richard Gasquet in Davis Cup ?
I think people have gone too far with Richard. Well, I agree he should have been more discreet with his mobile and more enthousiastic on the bench but I think the situation didn’t suit him and there have been problems of communication in the team. I still haven’t understand why he did play the fifth match.. I really have no idea.
He asked not to play the 4th match against Roddick..
So then, it means he was not disposed to play. From what I know, there is someone who decides in the story and it’s not Richard.
By the way, at least it was not you the one sending text messages to Richard during the matches?
But yes, it was. I was writing things like “I feel Paulo’s gonna do it! He’s gonna win!” The day after, when I read all this story about the text messages, I was like “Damn it, It’s my fault! Oh! La! La!” (pretending he was hiding himself under the table)
Translation courtesy of Julie & Truc ! of MTF